I took this shot of the sky with sun in the trees while walking beside the river last week. It was a lovely, sunshiny day.
I didn’t mean to worry my friends yesterday. I have mentioned previously that I have some health problems that I deal with – mostly of the kind that cause unpleasantness in the digestive system. Lots of pain, and nausea, and vomiting, and diarrhea. I don’t like dwelling on these problems – I think it’s boring and disgusting to go on and on about it. I had a bit of a flare-up yesterday accompanied by some pain and nausea. I keep demerol on hand for these occasional flare-ups. Usually I don’t need more than one dose to get things under control. Yesterday I ended up taking three doses. This causes me to sleep for about 36 hours. Thus no post yesterday. Today I am feeling a lot better, although a bit fragile. The pain is gone, and I’m just wearing out the demerol now. I gotta tell you the extra sleep is appreciated. I feel very rested today, and I’m still dropping off to sleep every little while.
If I just tell you I’m having a bad day and don’t elaborate on that will you understand? I feel a bit like Mr Hyde moves in to visit me on these days. You know, a sadistic monster who leaves me feeling like I have been attacked. Maybe that should be my code for my friends when I am dealing with this: Mr Hyde has come to visit. Then you’ll know that it’s just the same old thing and I’ll be fine again in a day or two.
The demerol is a two-edged sword. I love that it takes the pain away, and I love that I get a feeling of “Who cares?” At the same time I hate feeling like I’ve left my body and I’m floating away – and then there’s the staggering. I can’t seem to walk straight when I take it. Thinking straight is also a problem. lol
